Know how those lists o’ 25 are proliferating? Here’s my list, but not for Facebook. I might even mention breastfeeding!
1) I do not remember ever not being into spanking. I also doubt people who claim they became kinky as adults. Discovering a kinky side I get–to supress is to be an American in many circles–but to become? My litmus test of a real kinkster is: were you always like this?
2) One of my best friends fucked me with toys in a lesbian spanking video. It has never affected our friendship negatively, and it’s a fun memory to revisit.
3) The first spanking video I ever performed in was The Voyeur Husband, for Strict Women.
4) The second spanking video I performed in I shot the day after the first, and it was for Kelly Payne. I think the title has changed in the distributed DVD, but the original title was Aunt Kelly’s Lesson: Part Two.
5) Like most of us, I spent years trying to “will away” my kinky obsessions.
6) I don’t know what to worry about more: that my daughter will hate having a former sex worker and kink community organizer as a mom and rebel by going Mormon on us, or that she will be internalize all the negative messages our culture sends her about sex and the body, despite me being her mom. Or that I will send those messages too, unwittingly.
7) I delivered all 8 lbs and 15 ounces of my daughter vaginally without tearing. I wasn’t even sore past a week.
I was surprised by how much I love wearing latex. It makes me feel uber-sexy.
9) I always want to read more than I physically can. I am as passionate about words and writing as I am about kink, and my biggest dream is to always have the two married in my life and work.
10) I have a very hard time submitting, truly submitting. I have trouble shutting off my internal voices; I’m much better at bottoming or bratting. But, when someone can help me get to a point of submission, sub-space, it’s exhilirating.
11) I truly believe that with Obama as president, the landscape of our society has dramatically changed. I believe this in large part because I think that those who can blow whistles will be less afraid, and will blow hard: on racism, sexism, downright cruelty, and more.
12) My favorite paddle is a small, round black paddle with holes from JT’s Stockroom.
13) The first time I was caned, I fell in love with it, and surprised myself. I love caning, too. At the same time, I am not turned on by pictures or videos of caning. I like red, not striped, bottoms.
14) The first time I seriously played with bondage a lover tied me to the bed with pantyhose stretched across the box spring.
15) I love wearing fishnets and heels, and often feel sexiest in a fishnet bodysuit, heels, and short skirt.
16) I wish I’d been born just about 5 years later, because I think it would have made my kinky coming out a lot easier.
17) Even though I am married, I tend to prefer women as sexual and play partners.
18) I have had two serious affairs with married men. I used both relationships to help me get over terrible break ups with women I loved. I alternately do and do not feel guilty about them.
19) I’m not much for regular porn, and I really don’t like watching straight vaginal sex or cum shots.
20) When I was a phone sex operator, I got off hard core twice during calls. Once, I was so turned on I thought my clit was going to rub off and it hurt all the next day. Both times were with the same client.
21) Once on the phones, I talked to a caller about a real problem I was having and we did a scene that left me in tears and feeling purged of a lot of sadness.
22) Many times, I cried along with my clients as they confided in me about the abuses they’d suffered.
23) It is very difficult for me to get off without penetration. That said, good spanking play can get me to a point where you pop it in and Poof! I climax.
24) I love love love anal play–any which way. I think many spankos end up anal-fetishists too.
25) I promised breastfeeding–aha! Up until two days ago, I was breastfeeding. And I am fucking sick of people on FetLife asking me if they can drink my milk. No, fuckers. It’s drying up as I type and I am thrilled. I can’t wait to have my breasts back, so they can be teased and toyed with.
